Papa's Birthday

So today is my Papa's birthday.

 It has been 12 years since he passed but I feel him with me when i need him most. He is the most amazing man I know. So loving and care about everyone. He lived in Lake Havasu City so we didn't get to see him as often as we would have liked. 

I remember my wedding day when I was being sealed and I felt that he was watching me and so proud of the woman I have become and the man I married. Today was especially emotional and i realized it is because today it so special.

His death was not the easiest. He had cancer and it took a toll on him and his health. The last time I saw him he was bed ridden and I remember being a little girl and saying good bye to him and going into the guest room and bawling my eyes out. I miss him everyday. I wish he could see my kids grow up but I know he is in Heaven with them telling them to be nice to me :) 

This is my Papa's grave-site. My mom and sister were able to be there but hopefully when I go home for Christmas I will take Morgan there. It is in a beautiful place.

I miss you Papa. I will see you someday. 

I've been thinking

I've been in one of those moods where you just think about everything. Ever been in one of those moods.

Things I've been thinking about:

Future

Where we are going to live

Babies

Anything baby related like rooms, clothes, etc. (Don't worry no babies soon)

My family

you know those everyday things you think of. 

I have decided I need to start a journal, well many journals. I want to have a journal for everyone of my kids. Starting from the time I found out I am pregnant to the time they leave. My goal is to write something in it every night, whether it is a few pages or not. I wish my mom would have done something like that. When you are little and you say those funny things you ask about when you are older are so cute I wish I had something to remind me how cute I was :) 

I also want to write a journal for myself. I have been going through a lot in the past few years with my parents divorce and getting married. It's a lot to take in. I just need somewhere to put down my thoughts and forget them. And once I am older my grandkids/great-grandkids will read it and love hearing that their grandma went through the same exact things.

I say an amazing quote yesterday and it reminded me of my mom. It says "People cry, not because they are weak. They cry because they have been strong for too long." 

Some food for thought there.

Peace and Blessings

Update

There is so much that has gone on in our life the past 3 or 4 months since my last blog.
So I am not going to bore you with that.
We are now living in las Vegas and loving it. It is so nice being close to family, especially if they are only 20 feet away from us. haha 
We leave in 2 weeks for Hawaii for a Taylor Family vacation can't wait. Everyone will be there so it's gonna be fun. 
I will try to keep this updated with everything we do. 
Until next time, Peace and Blessings